Lately I’ve been so frustrated with who I am as a person. Like… I’m no good at <i>making things happen</i>. I do stuff or have ideas that I think are cool, and no-one gives a shit. Maybe they just don’t give a shit about me. I try my hardest, and still only manage mediocre results, or, worse, abject failure and embarrassment. Again it’s that thing about not being able to ~connect~ with people – in my own mind I always thought I was a unique and intriguing sort of person but lbr the evidence suggests I’m just awkward creepy wallpaper.

Ugh odd-numbered years always end like this. 10 years ago, when I was turning 25, I decided that 2006/7 would be the year I did a bunch of stuff while I had the time and freedom to do it. Maybe my 35th year should be one where I actually try and do shit anyone might notice or gaf about. Be a person people <i>want</i> to talk to, not someone they wish would just go away.

…If anyone wants to show me how to do that that would be great.