albionsolutions:

how many times do you think peter listened to carl’s heartbeat, in the inky darkness, head on carl’s chest lightly so as not to wake him, reminding himself that the depression hadn’t won

how many times do you think carl listened to peter’s heartbeat, clutched tight in a hello/goodbye/can’t believe you’re here hug, reminding himself that the drugs hadn’t won

I love thinking about stuff like this 😭😭😭 See also, today I was imagining the conversation between them when Peter said he was going to go to Thailand and make a serious attempt to get clean and how Carl must’ve felt 😭😭😭