i literally never force myself to do anything thats probably my biggest problem abjzsdgdhdj
me: ugh i dont want to do that
brain: dont do it then
me: can’t argue with that
We made a pact together by a canal. I was very passionate, and totally disillusioned. One day I said to him, ‘It’s either the top of the world or the bottom of that canal,’ and he said, ‘Do you really mean what you’re saying?’ and that if I did, he would join me. I said, ‘Yeah.’ We decided to throw ourselves into eternity
I’ve always found it difficult to live in the moment, always been scared of losing what I’ve got, often to the point of not enjoying it. And now it seemed as if my fears were being realised.