Idk what happened but since I got sick the other day I’ve just fallen into a horrible hole of despair where I feel like every single thing I’ve ever done or said in my life was just wrong and stupid and inappropriate and why can’t I just function like a normal human being and then maybe I’d be able to achieve things like others do? And by “achieve” I mean things that are valuable to me, like maintaining friendships, and being a good fan, both of which feel entirely outside my grasp rn.
Idk whether I’m glad I have another day off work tomorrow, or whether I wish I had something to divert my attention. Everything in my brain feels upside down and idk how to get it the right way up again. I’m dreading everything, especially next weekend. How tf am I going to deal with that, feeling like this? I hope this is just some post-viral shit or something cos I’ve not felt this bad in 10 years :
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