;_______; ikr. mine keep coming in instalments of grief, I haven;t looked at anything from last weekend cos I didn’t wanna breakdown at work, guess who is going to have a teary weekend :||||||||

I saw a gif on Tumblr today that I hadn’t seen before, of him going into the back of the Williams garage, and part of me wants to see the rest of the footage but a bigger part is like NOPE. Even yesterday I was like, yeah, cool, I can work through this, I’m enjoying the praise for him etc – then today I’m just like …but he’s going??? He’s really going????? I’ve been feeling teary all day too, not looking forward to working a wedding tomorrow (lol) plus Webbo retiring for good isn’t going to help!

eito songs u probably forgot about

yasusus:

F T O ( Funky Town Osaka )
Explosion
それでイイんじゃない (sore de iin janai )
誰よりもキミが好きだから ( dare yori mo kimi ga suki dakara )
Baby Moonlight
DREAMIN’ BLOOD
旅人 ( tabibito )
Oh!enka
太陽の子供 ( taiyou no kodomo )
エネルギー ( energy )
Mermaid
花であれ ( hana de are )
Animal Magic
あの言葉に ( ano kotoba ni )
ありがとう ( arigatou ) ( y’know.. the one that starts out with yoko’s horrific solo )
Wonder Boy / yoko solo
Forward / hina solo
みかん ( mikan / tangerine ) / subaru yoko yasu unit

I was about to say I WILL NEVER FORGET FTO then I realised I was getting it mixed up with Cool Magic City :X I guess I did forget, kinda. BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET EXPLOSION or Dreamin’ Blood @everydayfandom

Ah yes, the Felipe Feels. The Feelipes. ;___;

Everything just hit all at once after the interviews that’ve come out the past few days D: Him looking ahead to the future BUT NOT TELLING US ANYTHING ABOUT IT, the fact he won’t race the new cars, thinking about him contemplating and taking the decision to retire, all the bitternesses of the latter Ferrari years, even dumb stuff like thinking about him changing his userpics and bios on social media D: I can’t deal with the finality of it all, especially when there’s just a big ????? over what’s next!

OK OK idk what happened suddenly but today I am very very not alright about Felipe retiring and everything he’s been through in his career and thinking about p much anything, either good or bad, is TOO MUCH and I’m just very fragile rn D: 

Q: When you look back over 15 years in Formula One have there been times you felt uncomfortable?

FM: Probably in my last year with Ferrari. I was tired and not motivated. In that situation I thought ‘Maybe I am too nice!’ I know that I get a lot of compensation for this in many other areas in life – but probably not necessarily in F1. Maybe I also missed some opportunities, as in this sport you need to be aggressive – but then this wouldn’t have been me any longer. And I definitely was never a ‘Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde’ kind of person! (laughs)

Interview on F1.com

Ugh this really got me >< I really hope Felipe decides to talk more about some of this shit when he’s retired and away from the paddock. But like he says, maybe he’s just too nice a guy to dish some proper dirt in which case hopefully we’ll get it from Rob instead

3, 4, 40, 41 :)

Idk why but this ask showed up different to the others so I can’t include any formatting OH AND I SEE IT LOST TWO OF MY ANSWERS COS I PUT IN POINTY BRACKETS, ffs Tumblr wtf is wrong with you

3. three favourite writers

I’m pissed off at Tumblr now so these first two answers might not be as good as the original versions lol. Idk if this question meant fic writers or the other kind, but for once I’m going with the latter, cos I recently remembered how much I love Ray Bradbury and how discovering his work was the only good thing to come out of my one week at a sixth form college where I didn’t know anyone and felt so isolated and wretched I just spent all my free time in the library. Terry Pratchett is another eternal fave, especially the first half of the Discworld canon, peaking around Men at Arms/Soul Music. And I’m going to throwback to Roald Dahl, cos his work was everything I wanted as a child – fantastical events that he still described in a completely believable and captivating way, and baddies getting their comeuppance, lol.

4. three writers that have influenced me

The book that I’ve always aspired to write like most is Vladimir Nabokov’s Lolita. I was completely blown away by his descriptions and imagery, and even some particular phrases he used stick with me vividly. I also have to mention some fic writers here, because fic writing and reading are so closely intertwined: in Saiyuki fandom there was an author called New Kate who wrote the most creative, compelling, and cleverly woven stories, and I def tried to leech some of that style, lol. A few years back, at the height of the retro F1 revival, there was also a writer called theruo who wrote some incredibly sex scenes – not really the sort of sex scenes I write, lol, but still, there was a lot I felt I could learn from there. 

40. which one of your stories would you most like to see as a movie/series

When I started writing A Seaside Story in K8 fandom, the whole idea was that it was meant to be like a BL j-drama that Subaru and Yasu could star in, haha. Juvenile delinquent finds redemption and unexpected love on an isolated island, that is absolutely a j-drama plot! But I never finished the fic, even though I wrote like enough for a lengthy novel and had the rest planned out D; Curse my fickle nature!

41. one song that captures (insert story title)

A lot of my fics have titles stolen from songs, which is ironic in the case of Good to be on the Road Back Home Again, because that sentiment doesn’t seem to apply to the situation in the fic at all, lol. It’s been suggested to me by A Source that Million Reasons by Lady Gaga fitted it a lot better and it really does. So if anyone wants to make a fanmix to go with the fic, there’s a start~ ;3 And it’s a roadtrip fic, no better fic to have a mixtape for right?? >.>

5, 13, 17, 22, 36, 38, 45 for the writing thing!

Thank you! Soz for wall o’text lol.

5. since how long do you write?

I started writing fanfic properly in 2001, though I think I’d probably had some false starts towards the end of 2000. But I always wanted to be a writer from when I was a very small child. I used to start loads of stories and never finish them – all adventure stuff inspired by things like Narnia and Alice in Wonderland and Redwall. So I guess even if that wasn’t fic, it was “inspired by” other works, even if I didn’t know of fic as a concept until I was much older.

13. 

hardest character to write

Hmm idk! Looking back to Kanjani8 fandom, maybe Maru – he’s so bizarre and mysterious but also funny, it was really hard to think of what he’d do or say cos it’s likely to be extremely random lol.

17. 

favorite AU to write

ALL OF THEM though apparently uni AUs, cos they’re usually the first thing that springs to mind if I need a prompt for an exchange or something, lol. It’s a rich seam >.> 

22. favorite story you’ve ever written

In terms of F1, I always say Earthly Delights is my fave, and it still is, though I’m proud of Test Match as well. Idk what my favourite piece I’ve written ever is – I keep thinking about a short Prince of Tennis D1 fic I wrote many years ago that I could possibly turn into an original piece, but I’ve not read it back in a long time so it might be crap after all this time, haha. 

36. one-shot or multi-chaptered story?

One shots are much easier for me, even if they turn out to be 20k words lol. I find multi-chapter fics very hard – I only just got back off a year-long break with the one that looks likely to be the first one I’ll ever finish lol.

38. 

do you reread your own stories?

All the time – the ones that get a lot of kudos anyway, haha. For a start I like to check to see what I’ve written before so I can try and minimise repetition, but I also like to see what worked and what didn’t and hopefully reassure myself it didn’t entirely suck, haha. Though sometimes it backfires and you’re like Wow I could never write anything this good again! OR, Why did I think this was a good idea…? 

45. share the synopsis of a story you work on that you haven’t published yet

a) Love in a time of zombies
b) What’s the protocol when one falls in love with a sex worker?